Gisell Morfin-Juan

Preaching & Teaching

12. 11. 20

I can’t believe this is really the last week. It has been an amazing experience these past three months. It’s been an unforgettable experience and I know that all that I have learned and been poured into here at Pulse will help me even more in this next season that God has for me and future ones. Throughout these weeks at Pulse I have learned so much, so much that I won’t be able to put into words, but of course I will try. I want to give thanks to God and all the glory to Him, because He has spoken to me and opened my eyes. I’m thankful for Mark and Emily for allowing me to be a part of this team! I could not be more blessed for the opportunity that God has given me in this internship at Pulse. Because of everything going on, our last two weeks of the internship  moved online and Mark and Emily have done everything they can for us interns to make it the best last two weeks for us. It’s bittersweet but we’ve had the greatest time. We have too many laughs when we’re around each other and I love it. 

I’m thankful to Pulse for being an organization that is all about making Jesus known and always keeping Him at the center. I have seen so much unity here at Pulse and the people here are always working to better themselves first and foremost and wanting to reflect Jesus in everything they do. I’m so thankful for my fellow interns that I now get to call friends. They have really become family. We all are always wanting to grow in our individual relationships with God and encouraging each other in that. We always do our best to keep each other accountable and in friendships I found that to be so important. Being a part of the Preaching and Teaching Cohort has been such an exciting experience! I have learned so much and in so many ways. One of the things is never to compromise the Gospel, it only takes a “Can I pray for you?”, experiencing the Supernatural should be key when having a Supernatural God, how to show love and compassion, looking through the lens of Jesus, and so much more that I won’t be able to fit in here and I know I will regret later. I have also learned how to structure a sermon and the process to prepare for it. In learning that, the one thing I heard over and over again is: “Find your voice and be you.” Yes, both of those things may be cliche to you, but they are so important. God has a different plan for each of us and as Jesus followers we all have or should have one goal: expanding God’s Kingdom. Of course I still have so much to learn, but that’s what makes this even more special. Again, I couldn’t be more blessed.

I’m still under construction and I’m so excited to see what God has in store for me in this next season. Whatever it may be, I always want it to glorify Him. One of my favorite verses, Acts 20:22-24 says, “And now I am going to Jerusalem, drawn there irresistibly by the Holy Spirit, not knowing what awaits me, except that the Holy Spirit has told me in city after city that jail and suffering lie ahead. But my life is worth nothing unless I use it for doing the work assigned to me by the Lord Jesus—the work of telling others the Good News about God’s wonderful kindness and love.” 

This. This is how I want to live my life, doing nothing except what the Lord has assigned me to do. I want to see Revival break out and it will, but I have learned to ask God to revive me first before asking Him to revive the Church. 

Although this year and this internship are coming to a close, I am so thankful for what God has done. This year has been hard on all of us, but in the midst of it all, God is where we find rest. He is still so good even when things seem to be going wrong. God is way too good. I have been able to find so much peace and laughter even through it all and it’s all through Jesus. Proverbs 31:25 says, “..she laughs with no fear of the future.”

It has been chaotic, but I believe this year was needed. God knows what He’s doing. Every year will have its own troubles but that is why we cling on to God. We can’t do it on our own and without God we are nothing. Leaving everything behind to follow Jesus is a gift, because when you have Jesus, you have everything.

Even though the internship will be coming to an end here, my friendship with these beautiful people won’t. As Mark said, “Once in the fam, always in the fam.”

11. 26. 20

Recap from this past week: it has been a week filled with unexpected events for sure, not only for me, but for the whole team. I’ve learned and am still learning that change is not only about drastic change but it’s also huge in the smallest things. I am thankful for unexpected small life changes because although they are tough, they personally have helped me see the bigger picture. Those moments made me realize that although the situation may not be the greatest that it does not make God any less good or faithful. My praise and thankfulness towards Him should only increase in times of uncertainty. Jesus is just so so sweet. 

I have been reminiscing on God’s goodness and brainstorming for life and this next season. I want to be intentional in taking what I have learned and am learning within Pulse outside of here, because there is no doubt so much goodness to process and savor. I don’t want to miss a single drop of what God wants to show me through this amazing team! I don’t think anyone will be able to comprehend the amount of love and gratitude I have towards God first and foremost and my amazing team! I am truly beyond blessed! The ways we have shown up for one another has warmed my heart, and I can for sure see and sense God’s love through my people, just like it talks about in 1 John 4:12!

A little note for my team: I hold you all so close to my heart. Thank you for being you.

11. 20. 20

Let me tell you about this week. Wow. I am beyond blessed to be a part of this team. This is something I’ve mentioned before. God has spoken so much to me through all of these amazing women and men of God. It’s an honor and a privilege to be poured into by them. 

Tuesday was the November Revival Night filming and wow. God showed up alright! The presence of God was so tangible and sweet. I am blown away by what God is doing each day. All of us in one room proclaiming the name of Jesus is just priceless. It gives me a glimpse of what Heaven will be like. It’s a beautiful thing to worship God together. What makes it better is we all push each other in our individual relationship with God. Our relationship with Him is the most important relationship.

I was able to give my testimony during Revival Night and I am so grateful for that opportunity. It was an opportunity for me to glorify what God has done in my life. An opportunity for the Holy Spirit to flow through me and that’s all I want. Essentially, asking God for more of Him and less of me. The Holy Spirit indeed flowed through me and I didn’t resist because I knew God wanted me to say some things that I didn’t even have in mind. That’s when I was wrecked. It also showed me that when I speak to others I don’t have to worry about what to say because I can lean on Him. I can be confident in knowing He has it under control.

The weekend of the conference there was a group of us who got together: Youapa, Monique, James, Dominique, Teagan, Hayley, Gabe and myself. The love they have to go deeper with God is amazing. There is no price on that. After watching the conference together we all dove a little deeper into theology. We applied everything we learned in the conference to scripture. I left that meeting even more in awe of God.

The conference was specifically on apologetics. I learned a lot and I love it so much. I didn’t grow up learning about apologetics. I grew up learning more about what it is to have an intimate relationship with God. Which I believe set me up to receive apologetics and theology more tangibly. The conference did a good job bringing all of the content back to Jesus. It allowed my Pulse friends and I to discuss areas we haven’t talked about before. I am glad I was able to have it with a group of people who are intentional in listening to each other and having Jesus at the center.

It’s crazy how much you can learn about a group of people in nine weeks. We all have learned and grown so much together. I can say that we are family. I truly believe after this internship these people will continue to be so near to my heart. God’s love is revealed through this team just like it says in I John 4:12.

Jesus is so so sweet. It should always go back to Him. It’s that simple. We need Jesus all the time.

11. 14. 20

This past week was amazing. There’s not a week I don’t learn something that just wrecks me. We, as in the preaching and teaching department got to hear from Nick Hall. And wow! God spoke so clearly through him and it convicted me. He was talking about the importance and responsibility of preaching the gospel and it wrecked me.Something he said, “The messages I preached are being birthed in me.” Nick was talking about how the messages we preach are not something that are supposed to be winged. So so good and so true.

I’m so thankful we have leaders like Mark, Emily, and Nick that teach us the gospel. They don’t sugarcoat anything, they teach how it is and it’s raw. Which is super important.

11. 5. 20

This week has really highlighted identity. We are daughters and sons of the King, so we should walk like it! I’ve been learning more and more about my identity and that I can say I believe who God has called me to be. It was not a quick process, it took time. I am still learning who I am everyday through the lense of my Heavenly Father not the world’s lense.

We had the opportunity to hear from Nick Brandt, and it was incredible! There was so much that stood out to me in the message he gave about identity, but one thing that he kept asking was this, “Do you understand whose name is on you?”

 Yup, just that question made me think. Ask yourself that as well, because when we recognize whose name is on us we will begin to understand our value. We are God’s children. He’s our creator! We have so much value, more than we could begin to imagine! We have been made in God’s image! That in itself is incredible. Read Genesis 1:26-27.

Something else Nick mentioned that stood out to me was to read the Bible. No matter what comes, what goes, the Word doesn’t change. Therefore, what God says about us in the Bible remains the same forever just like He does. He keeps His word.

And the only way we can find who we are is by getting to know God the Father. We will always be questioning who we are if we don’t get to know the one who created us.

11. 29. 20

Wrecked. That’s what I can say about this week. All I’ve been is wrecked. Wrecked by God, and that’s all I ever want to be. God has stirred something inside of me that I don’t ever want to lose. He has given me a different perspective of myself and life. It’s something I’ve been praying for and He is still working. Seeing God speak to me and through me this week has been amazing! I have a deeper love and hunger for Jesus and the Gospel and God’s word overall. I am in the expectancy of what God is going to do. I know it’s going to be insane. REVIVAL IS HERE!!!

What I’ve learned at Pulse this week has been an overflow! The word that was given by Alex Hunter this Wednesday was about “Going All In,” and that moved me completely. We are continuing to be equipped to go out and make disciples just like Jesus told us to do so! (Matthew 18-20). I am so pumped, because what the world needs is nothing but JESUS. He is the answer. He is the cure. He is the one.

I am beyond blessed and thankful once again. I won’t get tired of saying that and it’s all glory to God! What our leaders, Mark and Emily, have been pouring into us has been so life-giving and I know it’s been for everyone else as well.

This is not over…the best is yet to come!

10. 22. 20

WOW! God never fails to amaze me. This past week has been challenging and refreshing at the same time. I have learned so much, but then again, at Pulse when am I not learning?! We’re always being poured into and it’s so life-giving.

We learned more about the supernatural and what got me was, “Jesus walked in the supernatural, we should too.” It’s so true! We hear and say the phrase, “I want to walk like Jesus,” but are we truly doing that? Because walking like Jesus isn’t only being kind and reading our Bible. Praying and healing people IS walking like Jesus. Acts 3:6 shows us just that!

“It should be a lifestyle to see healings.”- Mark Warder

Yes! It’s truly an honor to have leaders like Mark to teach us the Gospel with grace and rawness.

What I have learned here I have been able to apply in my life outside of Pulse. It has been nothing but nourishing and stretching. It’s too good and not finished yet. 

I also had the opportunity to connect more with the interns and it has been amazing! There’s never a time when we’re not laughing. As cringy as that may sound, it is very important to have. I can’t wait to see what else God has in store for all of us in these next few weeks. I am beyond thankful.

10. 16. 20

This past week was so eye-opening. I’ve seen how God moves through what I have to do to further His kingdom. The phrase “What you have is what you need,” is so real and true. I have come to a point where I don’t question if God can use me or not, because I know He can. He has shown me that in this season. There is still so much to learn, about Jesus, about myself and about life. 

I am so blessed to be a part of the Pulse team who values prayer and has Jesus in the center of every detail. Every leader and pastor who has poured into our lives is after God’s heart and it’s evident and encouraging. The way they present the Gospel is with grace and boldness and is not compromised. I love and appreciate that even though we’re young people, they don’t look down on us, but see leaders rising up. 

As a young girl in this day and age, it’s so uplifting to have leaders who see us through God’s perspective. While equipping us to go after what God has called us to do, which is advancing the kingdom of God daily. Christianity truly is a lifestyle (or it should be). Jesus shows us that and He is the best example we can look up to. I can say that those at Pulse are a reflection of Jesus daily. Interning at Pulse has definitely been stretching me in my relationship with God and my everyday life in the best way possible. It truly is a blessing to be a part of this team and learn from each other.

10. 9. 20

I am so incredibly thankful to God to be a part of this amazing team who is desperate to know more about Jesus daily. Being a part of Pulse these past two weeks has been so surreal. I’ve learned so much just in the course of two weeks and it’s insane!! It’s so much to process, but so good. God is doing something amazing in each one of our lives. Personally, God has been showing me the many ways He can use me, and I have learned not to limit God and let Him work in me and through me. I have learned to let go and let Him do what He wants. And I know this internship will challenge me as it already is, and push me far beyond where I am right now. There is so much to learn.

It has only been two weeks but what our amazing leaders, Mark Warder and Emily Langley have poured into us has just been incredible. God is using them in so many ways. I am so thankful for their obedience and dedication. I am looking forward to what God has for all of us as a team and individually. It’s beautiful to see how our leaders are passionate to see us being passionate about Jesus and He is the center of it all. I am excited to be challenged more and to learn so much more, specifically about my team, myself, but most importantly Jesus. 

Biography

Hello, my name is Gisell! I’m a part of the preaching and teaching department! I am 17 years old, a senior in High School – Southwest High School. What I love to do in my free time is journal, it’s a way for me to get away from everything around me mentally. One thing I am passionate about, is leading my generation (Gen Z) to Jesus. So I am so excited to learn more about how I can disciple my generation and most importantly, I am so pumped to grow more in my relationship with Jesus. Including growing with this amazing team.